numbers minded

so sorry i couldnt post anything for the last 5 days or more. i was very busy studying the mid tests and also tryouts. not really studying but i werent allowed to even touch this mac. now, i'm very relieved that those all have been passed away. there are some disappointment that i wanna share and also the plus things.

these are my scores for the mid tests :

Math 78 (below my first goal of 85)
English 78 (below my first goal of 90)
Science 55 (below my first goal of 70
Indonesian 84 (above my first goal of 80)

at first, i didnt want to tell y'all about these grades. but what the hell, i just wanna share my life with everybody. i was very disappointed with these bad-looking grades. firstly math, it was such a pity that i didnt even pass 80. the test was very simple and easy. most of my friends score above 85. they make the average of 88.9. i was very pissed when i knew it. my brain was screwed. i coulnt think of anything except this. my first reaction was the f word.

secondly, english, it was waaay below that what i had expected it would be. the test was freakin easy. i made 11 careless mistakes. imagine this.. ELEVEN!! after i got the paper, i found out these mistakes immediately. with these 11 mistakes, i just had 78. my first expectation was 90 because i really thank that the test had been so easy (turned out to be carelessly hard).

and the third one was science. damn it! i knew that it was gonna be bad. bad as in i would get 72 or more. but it was also waaay below. i scored 55. it was 7 mistakes below my first expectation. nicholas, wicak, many other friends and i also have 7 mistakes below than the first expectation, so we spontaneously made an organization or some kind of a meeting that's called THE SEVEN CONSPIRACY. it pissed me out so badly when i knew my score. i couldnt say a word. even the f word. never enough. never!

and the last one was indonesian. i had less expectation for this because of the previous scores. firstly, i thought it was gonna be 80. i closed my ears while hearing the teacher reads the scores. theeen 84 was the score. i was just relieved and happy. well, not happy enough to cover the three bad scores that i had recently.


these all made me very resentful and sad and also have less enthusiasm than ever before. sorry for these days, my blog was kinda like "DEAD" (what nicholas and rene said, the famous blog critics)

but today i was so content because i was able to do the math tryout well. i just made 2 mistakes of the total of 40. so my first expectation is 95. to be safe, i would say 90. yeah i hoped so i wouldnt miss anything and did such a careless work again as the previous ones.


sorry for my bad swear words. now i had better be going to prepare for tomorrow's physics test. sayonara!